RAKING GRAVEL There is a small green stone in my driveway that was Picasso once -- when he was living right in the surface layer of his perception. On one side floated the midges and damselflies of a horsetail-scented dusk, the radioactive, primal world splitting from the scum of pine pollen on the belly of the air, poisonous, impossible to touch; on the other side the dark, untouchable shadows, ten thousand years of condensed mist, and rain, and the cold-blooded, unblinking bottomfish. At the middle was Picasso, in the immeasurably thin skin of light playing over the water of his retina, in all the reflected and glowing colours of trees and houses and clouds and reeds -- casting them back on the sky. That might be enough for Picasso now, but for me the lake and trees burn there only when I watch them from the shore: seen from the sky, the lake is the grey and white sky. Today I am raking the gravel of my driveway, trapped, as Picasso was trapped. The stone slips through the teeth of the rake with a low sound, like a hammer striking a small clay bell. The lake burns a hundred metres away, through the lilies of the valley and the cloud anenomes, casting me, and my rake, against the trees on the far shore, as light. This is a particularly human problem. That Picasso has come back into the stillness of a pebble is, however, also a particularly human problem, and that is why I am raking the gravel today, in the dimensionless air after grey rain, the clouds towering above the hills as the black terns lift mosquitoes off the face of the lake and swallow them. They taste like grass. A skiff of wind spills in a slow, silver arc across the water and the tiny, two-inch fish -- the spring's spawn -- break the surface with their lips, like stones, skipping, then sink back into the reflected trees.
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